In this flashback, Alex's younger self is in church with his
Are you there, God?
It’s me. Alex.
I have something to say to you.
So, I don’t know if you’re even there
and listening right now. But if you are...
I need to ask you:
Why would you go and create
So many problems in the world? So much
War. So many killings. Too much discrimination.
Too many forces of evil that wouldn’t be
around in a world created by a ruler
that wasn’t as cruel as you.
If you’re really up there, WHY
did you have to go and create
so many challenges in my own life?
From all the sh#t that my family
has had to put up with, to giving me a condition
that totally f#$ked up the wires in my brain.
From being bullied and alone in high school,
to always feeling alone and depressed too often
in my life.
If you’re really watching, what’s the point in giving
so many reasons to doubt
your existence in the first place? Even aside from
all I already said, science would seemingly prove
that the Bible is fiction, while history seems to show
That some things do NOT happen for any good reason.
It seems like life is a puzzle that is solved by people
blind faith in ANYTHING, and that nothing
really happens after you die, despite
what some book written thousands of years ago
Everything seems to suggest that you are
either a fantasy that isn’t worth believing,
no different from Santa and the Tooth Fairy,
or someone who doesn’t deserve praise
for all the trouble you left for the world
that you supposedly created.
just give me some proof.
Show me that you’re real.
Then, and only then,
will my view of the world radically change,
and I will gladly accept you,
in the hopes that MAYBE,
I will finally find some sort of
Because not much else seems to be working for me...
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