CHARLIE (cont’d) I can’t do this, Lou....

CHARLIE (cont’d) I can’t do this, Lou.

LOUISE What?

CHARLIE I can’t do this.

LOUISE What does that mean?

CHARLIE I don’t know. But I can’t do it.

A beat.

LOUISE You got me pregnant. It’s already done.

CHARLIE I did not do this to you. I have spent the last six months feeling like I don’t know who I am anymore and feeling like I can’t talk to you about it because you don’t understand.

LOUISE I want to understand, but I can’t if you don’t talk to me.

CHARLIE It’s just so final. There is this experience that I have taken for granted my entire life that I would have. There was never a question that it would happen. Like the most basic human experience. But I will never get to now. And I only get one life, Lou. So it’s like I never get to do it… like ever. And I didn’t choose that. But it doesn’t matter, because it’s so permanent. And life just never really felt like that before. And right now, that’s all it feels like.

(beat)

I have been so jealous of you. Because it’s not something you want.

LOUISE Charlie...

CHARLIE I just want everything to go back to the way that it was, when I didn’t have a baby because I didn’t have one and not because I couldn’t have one.

A beat.

CHARLIE (cont'd) I can’t have a baby, Louise.

LOUISE But we can.

CHARLIE It’s going to hurt too much.

LOUISE It won’t hurt too much. It will hurt. A lot. But becoming a mom is supposed to hurt. I’m going to have to push a baby out of me. And it’s going to hurt so much. But that was okay because it was going to be our baby. But now... Charlie...once this baby gets to know me, it’s going to know that it’s f#&ked. Because I have no idea what to do with a baby. I never thought I’d have one. And now I am. And I hope it gets to know you too, because otherwise...

(beat)

A baby is a whole other life, Charlie.

(beat)

And I’m so scared. I don’t think I can do it without you.

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