Cullum is an alcoholic. He has been sectioned after he nearly died in
CULLUM: My name is Cullum and I’m … I’m here. Isn’t that enough?
CULLUM: This is my first … I don’t know what I’m meant to … Do I … Are there rules? The guy in the bed next to me says there are rules … in the … There are rules.
CULLUM: My name is Cullum. And I’m - I already said that.
SOUND. DISTORTED VOICE.
CULLUM: Start at the … What’s the ...
CULLUM: My name is Cullum Ryan. And I’m … You don’t say that. You don’t say your …
“This is your life. This is who you are.”
My - I was lying on the floor in this motel room. I was on the carpet … I was …
Michelle. She left me, lying on the carpet in that shit hole. I could’ve …
She’s meant to be my wife!
CULLUM: Then what is it about?
CULLUM: And I don’t deserve this! This … place. There’s nothing wrong with me!
CULLUM: I want this to be over. I want to get out of here.
CULLUM: My name is Cullum. And I’m a - It doesn’t matter what I am! I’m … I’m …
CULLUM SLAPS HIMSELF HARD ACROSS THE FACE.
CULLUM: I hate. (SLAP) I hate. (SLAP) I hate!
SILENCE. DISTORTED VOICE.
CULLUM: (BECOMING DESPERATE) I don’t remember where it started!
I was in this motel room.
Lying on the floor.
Michelle is holding this piece of mirror.
Her hand is bleeding.
There’s someone in the mirror.
He’s looking straight at me.
I know that face.
It’s … It’s … me.
And for the first time …
Right down here (HE PUNCHES HIS GUT) I know.
And I hate every single fibre of what I am.
And the only way to escape that feeling is another drink.
CULLUM: Is that enough? Can I go now?
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