The narrator is recounting their mother’s second suicide attempt. The
Start: I forgot about the list until her second attempt, just over ten years later. Dad showed up halfway through Chemistry. The same trapdoor feeling. Fight or flight. The same wordless drive to the hospital.
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End: 999, Sunlight. However much you know that you’re not to blame, you can’t help feeling like you failed them. It’s not fair to feel this way. But it is natural.
For full extended monologue, please refer to clips or the script edition cited here: Duncan MacMillan, Every Brilliant Thing, Paines Plough, 2013, pp. 44-48.
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